If Your Sex is on Fire you should probably see a Doctor

Alternative title: Insecurity 101

Is it wrong that at the age of 28 I still worry about my level of 'cool?'

Of late I have found myself wondering whether it is ok to like certain music or certain films based on their 'cool' level... for example, I have been in love with the Kings of Leon song 'Sex on Fire' since I first heard it on the radio.... now I know this to be a grand misdemeanour in the great church of righteous awesomeness and probably should have me kicked out.... so I love it in secret and do not speak of my shame publicly (until now obviously).... but why the fuck should I care?

Ok, it doesn't stand up to their early work...clearly they shaved off their beards and cut their hair and became vastly too mainstream to be considered 'cool' anymore... but despite my better judgement I love that song....

There are countless other examples as well but frankly, having just done the musical equivalent of coming out to my parents I am not about to rub salt in the wound by telling them that my new partner is my old high school gym teacher...

My point is... why do I care?...

Am I not a free spirit, a caster off of the shackles of societies norms and judgements, a nay sayer to the whims of the mass populace, a crusader in the battle to end fear, to embrace differences, to spit in the eye of expectations, to dance on the grave of oppression and defecate on the pillow of ignorance?

Why do I feel the need to judge my own whims and censor my own entertainment for fear of what people will think of me?....

I should be allowed to run free, wooping and hooting at the joy of music and cinema because I love it....I should not have to quantify liking something by saying things like 'I know it's terrible but...'

So why, why oh why in the name of Jebus do I care?

Stupid cripplingly low self esteem.... bollocks to you... bollocks I say...

I'm off now in a cloud of whimsy to listen to songs I love... I don't care if you like them or not... poo to you!



(I do still care a little bit though if you now think I'm less cool than you did before...damnit)